I find it really hard to post when I'm feeling emotionally unstable, over tired, quite depressed with exasperated emotional energy.
In some aspects this road trip has been very testing, every ones different personalities, how we all clash at times and how very different we are to each other sometimes causing very heated arguments that turn into very aggressive and hurtful fights.
I'm pretty much run down from all that BUT I understand its all part of the journey and we all learn through these experiences (hopefully) our experiences as we see as well as our dynamics with one another.
Even with our tiring outburst I have found the beauty in the last few days, the beauty not only in the deep love we do in fact have for one another but for the last part of our trip where we have explore what you call 'the outer banks" on the east coast of the USA. Basically we have crossed ferries, tunnels and bridges that cross oceans to get to different islands where we have been embodied by sea and as we drive, the roads have basically been embodied by water on both sides, I find this to be magical. I was in awe of how bridges were built to cross an entire bay, I love an Island called Ocracoke , really quaint little beach time, we stayed in the first hotel ever built on the island called Blackbeard Lodge and you could tell, it was beautiful, with old maps and moldy walls, the hall ways were green reminiscent of ghostlike pirates lurking. Our room was like a cabin, we loved it. We spent the day on the beach swimming in very warm water, nothing like CapeTown- WARM.
Yesterday for the most part we spent the day driving through the outer banks stopping for a swim in a very calm sea, it was like a lake r a dam, you could walk miles and still not be deep enough to go under.
It was a mesmerizing drive, sea on both sides,white sand dunes and massive seagulls gliding just in front of the car,playing chicken.
We arrived in a town called Ocean City and its a real American broad walk on the sea and I actually love it. The beach goes on and on and the broad walk is exciting with shops and restraints and a 'fun fair'
My sister and I ended up having a disagreement,a massive argument a fight in volumes after a dinner, what started out as me being confused about simple math ended up in intense emotional battles, so there we were on the boardwalk arguing, of course when I'm upset I don't see anyone or anything else, so if people are watching it doesn't phase me, even when I stomp my feet screaming "don't you fucking talk to me like the" The argument as usual ended up in us ignoring each other and so it hangs. I never know what to do from here, ignorance is bliss, or dare to dwell?
I plan to rent a bike now and ride to the end of the boardwalk, have a swim and get on the road to New York City.
Our road trip is coming to an end soon and I am beginning to feel it and it feels kind of sad. Ive decided to stay in New York an extra week so at least my travels are not over just yet but in my mind travels are never really over, I travel even when I'm home sitting on the couch with my dog.
In some aspects this road trip has been very testing, every ones different personalities, how we all clash at times and how very different we are to each other sometimes causing very heated arguments that turn into very aggressive and hurtful fights.
I'm pretty much run down from all that BUT I understand its all part of the journey and we all learn through these experiences (hopefully) our experiences as we see as well as our dynamics with one another.
Even with our tiring outburst I have found the beauty in the last few days, the beauty not only in the deep love we do in fact have for one another but for the last part of our trip where we have explore what you call 'the outer banks" on the east coast of the USA. Basically we have crossed ferries, tunnels and bridges that cross oceans to get to different islands where we have been embodied by sea and as we drive, the roads have basically been embodied by water on both sides, I find this to be magical. I was in awe of how bridges were built to cross an entire bay, I love an Island called Ocracoke , really quaint little beach time, we stayed in the first hotel ever built on the island called Blackbeard Lodge and you could tell, it was beautiful, with old maps and moldy walls, the hall ways were green reminiscent of ghostlike pirates lurking. Our room was like a cabin, we loved it. We spent the day on the beach swimming in very warm water, nothing like CapeTown- WARM.
Yesterday for the most part we spent the day driving through the outer banks stopping for a swim in a very calm sea, it was like a lake r a dam, you could walk miles and still not be deep enough to go under.
It was a mesmerizing drive, sea on both sides,white sand dunes and massive seagulls gliding just in front of the car,playing chicken.
We arrived in a town called Ocean City and its a real American broad walk on the sea and I actually love it. The beach goes on and on and the broad walk is exciting with shops and restraints and a 'fun fair'
My sister and I ended up having a disagreement,a massive argument a fight in volumes after a dinner, what started out as me being confused about simple math ended up in intense emotional battles, so there we were on the boardwalk arguing, of course when I'm upset I don't see anyone or anything else, so if people are watching it doesn't phase me, even when I stomp my feet screaming "don't you fucking talk to me like the" The argument as usual ended up in us ignoring each other and so it hangs. I never know what to do from here, ignorance is bliss, or dare to dwell?
I plan to rent a bike now and ride to the end of the boardwalk, have a swim and get on the road to New York City.
Our road trip is coming to an end soon and I am beginning to feel it and it feels kind of sad. Ive decided to stay in New York an extra week so at least my travels are not over just yet but in my mind travels are never really over, I travel even when I'm home sitting on the couch with my dog.
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